See you again

Silence.

In my heart.

A desire, somewhere.

I miss you.

Somewhere you're walking and you don't miss me.

Thinking about the point of life.

Who am I?

Who can I be?

What am I doing here?

Silence.

Maybe I'll find you again someday.

And you yourself.

                                               - Annemijn Bokhout

Constant

I'm in constant fear that you won't like me.

The Idea of Love and the Insanity of It

You're always there.
Maybe not physically, but you're there in my mind. With everything I do and everything I say. You drive me insane! I can never focus.
And where am I? Do you think of me?

I want to scream, is this what love is? Or is it just the idea of it? I'm scared that everything I worked so hard for will slip out of my hands and for what? Some stupid picture of a happy ending? It could never work.
I want you out. Out of my head!
I have dreams to chase and wishes to make come true.
I don't want your touch burning on my skin.
I can't fight it. I'm so tired. I'm so confused.

Turkish Proverb

Luggage

We unpack our emotional luggage.

Tell our friends and family about all our struggles.

Then we repack and keep carrying all our shit.

Talk. Let go.

Better Life Pledge

Better Life Pledge

I here by pledge to wake up 15 minutes earlier and do yoga outside, to take the time to make and eat a healty breakfast, to snack responsible. I pledge to give my mind more rest and my body more sleep, set every day goals that are within reach. To take better care of my body and love it the way it is. I pledge to work hard, to turn off my laptop, phone and other disctractions for an hour a day and meditate or have time for myself. I pledge to go out more, hang out with friends, to be more positive and love life. I pledge to go running at least once a day and do a small workout. I pledge to make memories that are just for me and close friends and to always keep those memories close to my heart. I pledge to be more patient and more loving towards others, to judge as less as possible, but first get to know the other person. I pledge to plant a tree, take good care of it and give the earth some CO2.

I pledge to live a better life and take better care of myself and my surroundings. 

Scars

When the people we love leave us and we are forced to say goodbye, they can leave a hole in our hearts. A hole that might never be filled up and we stay behind scared and scarred. Scared of being alone, of the pain we feel inside, and scarred because of what we lost. But someone once said: "A broken heart lets the sunlight in thorugh the cracks." No matter how much pain we are in, it will always get better. Because this life wasn't meant to be lived in pain. It was meant to be lived in the light and the warmth of the sun. In happiness. In love. If we take our time to heal our hearts, something beautiful will grow through the cracks. The scars may never leave, but they don't have to. They can be a reminder of the things we went through and of the things we got back for those hard times. Hard times come to teach us lessons. Lessons pay off.