Friday, January 15, 2016

Running

I'm so lost.
I have no idea what I'm doing here, where I'm going.
I thought I had it all figured out, but I have no clue whatsoever. I had plans, big plans, and looking back I might have to admit on making them too big.

Don't they tell you to aim high though?
What if I can't reach high? What if I'll always dream big but will never reach big?

It all makes me so insecure. I feel stupid and afraid, as if I'm drowning in work and unknown knowledge. Did I not work hard enough? Should I have payed more attention, asked more questions? Or did I give it all and is it okay if I don't finish this path?
I'm doubting all of it.
What if I disappoint people? Maybe that is my biggest fear... I don't know. I don't know anything at this moment. I feel so lost. What am I running from?